Probably obvious to lots of you, and obvious to part of me, but it’s still hard to come all the way out of denial. As much as I’d like to be everything to everyone (including myself), thinking that’s doable over the long haul is just setting myself and everyone I’ve made a commitment to, up for a huge disappointment.
I try not to be an idiot any more then necessary so I figured it was time for a little life/priority evaluation.
Choosing priority number one is always easy, it’s my family, and since they are impossible to ignore even if I wanted to they always come first. After that things start getting tricky.
Designing? Writing? Volunteer work? Housework? Friends? Paperwork? Travel? Yard work? Household projects? Personal hygiene?
After pausing to actually think I realized it’s not so tricky after all. I’ve wanted to be designer my whole life. I drew pictures of shoes in church (that’s what you see with your head down), created hundreds of floor plans, experimented with every craft I could get my hands on, and even talked my dad into building me a bed of my own design. All before high school.
As an adult I tried designing software, started my own custom invitation business, and redecorated/remodeled 4 houses.
I need to create, to make, to craft something with my hands and heart. It’s the food for my spirit and no matter what else is happening in my life I search for ways to satisfy my hunger.
After 39 years of searching, I feel like I’ve found my favorite cuisine and that I’m actually becoming a pretty good cook. And recently it seems that I’m not the only one who likes my food.
What I’m trying to say, all be it in a very long and rambly way, is that I’m committing my heart and my time to becoming a full time pattern designer. Shawl That Jazz is really taking off and giving me a great opportunity to get my name out to lots of knitters. I don’t want to waste that wonderful gift.
Unfortunately I need to eat and sleep and shower once in a while so that means giving up something else. So I will no longer be writing for the Daily Chum.
I’ve been writing since Sept 2007 and it’s time for me to let go and move on. I learned a lot and enjoyed stretching myself, but I just can’t do it all. I’ll miss all the readers and I hope they come and visit me here once in awhile.
I’m going to keep posting tips on Tuesdays here on my blog, but I’m giving myself permission to skip weeks if I need to and to sometimes just pass along a quick link.
All the pictures are designs currently underway. Amazing what you can do with a little free time and clear priorities.